haiz got to talk to u today.. was happy but oso worry.. i dunno how to help u.. dunno are u really able to handle it?? i'm really veri veri worry abt u loh.. it's my fault sia.. shldn't msg u loh.. *slap* haiz i cuz u into this mess sia.. -stupid mE- really so regret.. now feel so useless sia.. wadeva i do oso like wrong manx.. sad loh.. haiz no mood to write liao.. -worry abt U-
[|inG] -1207-
i'm overwhelmed sia.. received bb e-mail todat and oso got to talk to U.. i'm so happy can!! -yEAps- no words can describe how delighted i was when i saw u online loh.. oh dear i was kinda worry abt the sms thingy.. are u sUre it'll b fine?? haiz if i know earlier, shldn't haf sms U sO u cAn come back earlier loh.. haiz.. my fault manx.. now gotta wait till CNY den u can return.. ahaha.. i'll company u go eat all the spicy food tat u are craving for.. *heE*.. guEss my most happiest moment will be that day u return and meet mE loh.. ahaha.. i'm so good in my words ar?? u better polished up ur spelling ar.. so many typos loh.. hmm wonder wad u doing noW.. hopefully i can chat with u tml wor.. *pray hARd*
|inG -1207-
ytd received a mail from bB.. so happy.. *yeaH* as usual waiting for her news, yet i know she can't contact mE.. but i believe she will try all means to find her ways to keep me informed.. hmm miss her dearly loh.. *sobx* still got along way upon her return.. damn sian.. i need her to keep ME company wherever i gO.. haiz.. see how much i needed her.. wonder if she need me tat much too notx?? hai.. everyday like sO moodless manx.. see la.. i sure lose a few pounds liAo.. din eat well cuz miss u toO much lehz.. i think BB sure bcUm FAT CHAO TA MOUSEy le.. ahhaa.. -bleah- no matter u bcUm wad i sure love U de.. *hee*
[L]inG -1207-
*hee* today bb sent me her 1st e-mail damn happy wor.. cuz she hasn't msg mE for 3 days le.. she can't sms Me anymore damn sad lehz cannot get her news le.. haiz all i can dO is to wait for her to e-mail le liao.. bb do u know i miss u badly too.. wondering are u eating well not?? sobz.. miss ulots and love u loads.. -muackz-
[L]inG -1207-
mErrY x'mas..!! u hasn't been msg-ing me for 3 days le.. ya i received ur 3 words le.. *hee* wad a surprised wor.. din even know u bought flowers for me till today loh.. idert!! y waste money to buy flowers for me.. ahaha but really thanks alot wor.. -hugs- hmm wondering did u receive my sms not? i had a hard time sending it out.. cuz my fone spoil wor.. bb i miss u alot lehz.. haiz.. still got abt 1 mth to go.. -sobz-
[L]inG -1207-
hmm i lock our blog today cuz he has been reading our blog ar den dun wan him to get any news of me loh.. hope bb dun mind wor.. haiz.. saw ur sms today, sO happy wor.. *hee* haiz still 1 mth for u to return wor. sian... haha u said in 3 days time i'll receive 3 words from u?? i wonder in wat way u are giving me the 3 words lehz.. *excited* love surprises wor.. hEe.. thinking wad kind of x'mas eve i'll be getting wor.. guess shld b damn boring le.. cuz every year x'mas spent with u.. den this yr dun have u ard abit the weird wor.. hmm shAn bought mE a gift wor.. ahaha i received 3 presents le..
[L]inG -1207-
today is the 9th day bb not ard le.. she din sms mE today.. haiz.. today fone damn quiet.. din receive any msg at all.. sO pathetic rite.. ytd morning bb msg and tell ME that i can't sms her on 29 dec and thereafter le.. haiz dunno how to contact her liao.. she say she'll be able to use the net from den on.. well dunno true not.. oh ya she told mE a good new wor.. she persuaded her mum to let her stay in sg to continue her studies.. *3 cheers for her* i guess she did it for the person her love ba.. though i hope it is really mE but i really dunno for who.. -sobz- guess i gotta e-mail her le.. hopefully i wld get a sms from her soon..
[L]inG -1207-
hai today is the 5th day bb not ard le.. she din sms mE today.. dUnno why oso but guess cuz sms ex ba.. nvm i know that she will sms mE de.. and i know that in her heart, she's worrying abt mE too.. although she is not ard but i know her heart is always with mE.. i can feel her care despite dat she is sO far away from mE ar.. however i'm still lonely but i'm starting tO get used to it le.. cuz in my heart she is always beside ME de.. noW den i know how much i've relied on her thru'out the time.. guess i've gotten the habit of having her with mE every moment le.. even gg mall to get something, i oso needed her to pEi me.. well guess this period of time w/o, wld be the time i learn to be independent le.. ahaha..
[S]eRenE
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today is the 2nd day, she finally sent a msg to mE.. i'm glad wor cuz at least i know she had safely reached there le.. *hee* well bB, he gib me up le.. guess noW the choice is up to mE.. well i decideD to go back to lesbian world le.. but i need some timE to turn back wor.. and i know that i'll be taking this timE to reflect and think.. hopefully when u are back, i'll be able to come out with an ans le.. rite?? ytd nite cry to slp.. i really feel so lonely wor.. hAiz.. and it's the 1st timE i'm feeling so lonely wor.. and no1 is ard for me wor.. haiz.. if u are in sg, u'll be there for mE le.. sobz.. really miss U..
[S]eRenE
hAiz.. went to send bB off ytd.. i'm so sad.. cAn't bear her to leave wor.. haiz at the dEparture hall, i gib her the last hugz and dEN she leave le.. bb ask mE dUN cry but upon seeing her sms, i cried.. rEally gotta miss her alot.. bb prOmised to sms mE when sHe reached but i waited foR so long.. shE had not sms mE yet.. and i'm still waiting for her msg. wondering wad shE doing and where is shE now.. haiz still got 40 dAys left for her to return.. and today only the 1st day she not ard.. sObz.
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yeAh.. finally sTart posting to our bLog.. dIn know i sUppoSe to write in here tOo.. aHaha.. -bleAh- tHanks for being sOo understanding towards mE.. rEally gald that u cAn gib mE the pEace to think over and reflect loh.. -muAcks- buT loSing U, i will be sAd dE loh.. that's y i dUnno wad i wAnt.. tml u'll be leaving lE.. rEally hOPE timE passed by faster so i wld be able to see u a mth ltr woR.. wEll i'll miSSing u greatly dE loh.. but {ahaha} i'll still be out fOr fUn woR.. -blEAhx- i'm wonDeriNg wAd's my christmAs preSent lE.. ahaha anxious fOr christmas to come, so that i can see wad bB get for mE lehz.. *gRin* guEss this year christmas wUn be as fUn as the previouS years lE.. -haiz-
[S]eRenE
sobz....really sobz....din expect things to turn out this way sigh...since this is wat she needs....-time to think carefully- i shall give it to her....if we r meant to be we will.... thou its pressurising for her ya...maybe gg for a month or so to aust will give her more den enough time to reconsider wat she wans to be and who she wanna be with....all i hope is that i will be with her but ya...its all up to fate...if possible that we manage to be together i will definately stay in sg to study worz juz to be with her is the best thing in life...i'm beginning to understand wat ya feeling...but i guess its too late le...i know u have been always giving me a lot....by not trying to lose ur temper on me...being calm and understanding towards me...u are nothing i can ask for more...u gave me love, care and most of all u r understanding...but i should say i agree with charmaine as in the things she said bout us...that whenever u flight its always on a minor stuff we usually biao chou qin to one another lo...sigh...well i dunno wat to do but juz wait patiently for her reply worz...
ur lovingly ally`mousey...
i know ya feeling real bad as u r torn between me and that ass hole (i juz hate him) i understand ya having a bad time i know sometimes i'm juz to demanding coz i'm very sensitive coz i fear to lose u again...if i dun react so much with every single movement of urs..haha den u better be prepared...that is the day that it never would appear...
tata gonna drown myself with voka...
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumbling down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about
The love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still
Tomorrow morning I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
***// Love is real.. I know.
Don't push me away, baby please.
I need your hand, cos you're my home.
Every breath I take, is in your name.
Im afraid to let go, yet more afraid to stay.
Whats life for me without you,
I am I.N.C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E.
Every time the tears flow,
it just goes to show how much i love you.
Dont you see.. My scars, my hurt, my fears, my struggle
Tell me please.. All these are worthwhile. //***
SomeTiMes i RealLy wiSh i wAs tHe Perfect perSon 4 Ya...bUt ThE tRuTh i'M nOt...I fEeL, SoMeHoW, tHat i'M n0T tHe OnLy oNe iN ya HeArT...i know u will start saying how much u love me bla bla...but my dear i ain't feeling any from you i was very sad yesterday thou but i tried my best not to show it out by keeping quiet most of the time. i was sad and disappointed at the same time coz throughout ur conversation with lala u speak mostly all abt him -i was devastated- do u really love me or izzit becoz u found out that the guy u once love has started to change as in attitude?? i dunno....feel so sad so depress i'm such a B.U.M a useless bum ~sigh~ i can't even let my gf be happy with me i'm such a wimp i'm in a dire state now....really damn dejected....-sadded-
